"without you, today's emotions would be the scurf of yesterday's..."

the newest addition. can't wait to show you, Mattie. ;)

blue...

I'm going to get my tattoo today, Mattie. I'm unusually nervous.
I wish I could talk to you about it...I miss you.

for me...

this song speaks to me. i'm not afraid.

OH MAN...

I love this beast. it's finally mine. :D

and your name, sir?

today, I feel sick.

I worked from 10am to 11pm. it went pretty well, but there are always those ridiculous people you wait on that make your job hell. some are simply outright rude, some yell at you, some ignore you, some steal from you. but some are nice, very few make you smile. I miss you, Tommy and Michael. you always make my day a million times better. thanks for being amazing.

I bought everything I needed for my aquarium. everything is setup, I just need to buy my fish now. ;) I'm pretty excited. everyone makes fun of me for wanting one...I think they're just jealous. it's going to be the happiest fish ever.

I'm hoping to have enough money by next week to finally get my tattoo I've been meaning to get since January. in January, I had enough money saved up, but my artist was setting up his new shop. then the money had to go to bills, and when he finally got his shop set up...I had no money. so I'm saving again. hopefully soon. ;)

speaking of, I bought a bike. a '95, 750 yamaha virago. oh man. I love it. my first ever vehicle and the best, as well. I've never learned to drive a standard car, so this is my first time learning gears/shifting manually. it's been pretty interesting, but I think I'm finally getting the hang of it. it's so exciting, I absolutely love it.

life has been throwing punches lately. I wish it were kinder. but it's all in my head. and also, all my fault. so I have to take them. and live with them.
but Andy is my life saver. and he'll never leave or forsake me. and for him, I live.

alright.

don't want a paper gangsta

I've been very confused lately.
I don't understand why I'm here lately.
I'm a bit lost.