you are someone else...I am still right here....

I hurt myself today. To see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain...the only thing that's real.
What have I become.
My sweetest friend.
Everyone I know goes away in the end.

I think there is a tree frog in my house. or a cricket or two. it's quite loud now. or maybe it's just especially quiet otherwise.

I wish my mind was quiet. it's raging a storm. it's interesting to watch. and listen to. so I s'pose I don't wish my mind was quiet. someone once said that we only wish for the wrong things.

I started Dean Koontz's third book tonight. Brother Odd. good so far...I won't know for sure though until I finish it. until the end.

I've been thinking a good bit about death recently. and how I might die. and if I'll be ready. I want to be ready. so I try to prepare my mind for it. but I don't know I'm doing it correctly. or if it's working.

mad world.