all we can do is keep breathing....

I wish that I could tell people that things will be okie. I wish I could tell them not to be sad. I wish I could cheer them up somehow.

I wish I could do all the things I want to. all the things I CAN do, but that I'm too scared to do.

but the things we wish for most often are not what is the best for us....

no?

tonight's gonna be a good night....

first to be with you in the beginning.

first to be with you in the end.

much love.

make me immortal with a kiss....

They're playing our song
They're playing our song
Can you see the lights?
Can you hear the hum?

Of our song
I hope they get it right
I hope we dance tonight
Before we, get it wrong

And the seasons
Will change us new
Be the best I've known
and you know me
I could not be stuck on you
If it were true

I was sleeping
My eyes were dark
Til you woke me
And told me that opening
is just the start
it was

Now I see you, til kingdom come
You're the one I want
To see me for all the stupid shit I've done


Soil and six feet under
Killed just like we were
Before you knew you'd know me
And you know me

Blooming up from the ground
3 Rounds and a sound
Like whispering you know me
And you know me


So this was our song
This was our song
I still see the lights
I can see them

And the criss cross
Of what is true, won't get to us
Cause you know me
I could not give up on you

And the fog of what is right
Won't cover us cause you know me
I could not give up a fight

I drew a new face and I laughed....

my dearest.
I cannot tell you how much you mean to me.
so that's where this post ends. ;)


only kidding.
I will try. ;)

thank you for being my husband. you understand me.
one year with you.
I've been the happiest this year than any other year in my life.
you make me feel so beautiful always and so loved.
some of the best parts of my days are when you make me laugh.
and some of the best parts of my days are when I see you smile or laugh.
you make my life.
I love you.

I will be the one who loves you the most....

I am here. unable to close my eyes. unable to let the darkness overcome me.

I feel a...heaviness in my soul.

wake up.

hold my hand.

don't leave.

wake up.

inhale these deep breaths with me for one more day.

watch the time go by beside me, not knowing, not caring.

just be.

red lips so kissable....

365 days, my love. ;)

remember this, my love...

When the sky is falling from above you
And the wind is raging from the coast
And you want someone who truly loves you
I will be the one who loves you the most.

When the masquerade and burlesqued balls
Become too ordinary to boast
You complain about the parade and curtain calls
I will be the one who loves you the most
Yeah, I will be the one who loves you the most.

When the women with their stolen graces
Don't invite you to play host
To their daughters with fake faces
I will be the one who loves you the most.

When all the debutantes desert you
And all the doorways are all closed
And the harlequins have hurt you
I will be the one who loves you the most.
I will be the one who loves you the most.

When your suitors sneering swank beside you
And leave you hollow like a ghost
And you just want somebody to confide to
I will be the one who loves you the most.
I will be the one who loves you the most.

See, when you forgive your imperfections
And you've auctioned all your clothes
And look to see your true reflection
You will be the one who loves you the most.
You will be the one who loves you the most.
You will be the one who loves you the most.